Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Sometimes things are hard to understand...

My husband just called me. He was very somber in his tone and said he had some news he needed to share. A mutual friend of ours had sent him an email this morning. She just lost her mother to esophageal cancer 3 weeks ago. This has been an incredible loss in her life as her mother was her best friend. Now this morning she just shared that she found out 2 weeks ago that she has breast cancer herself. She is a wreck and my husband and I were stunned by this news. She is 34 years old and has a 15 year old son. After I hung up with him, I have been sitting here, feeling like I have been run over by an emotional bus. You see cancer is something that has been affecting many people in our lives. My niece was diagnosed with uterine cancer on Tuesday. She is 24. My husband's best friend is 37 years old and was diagnosed with a GBM IV, a terminal brain tumor, 10 months ago. My cousin's husband had a tumor removed from his brain stem almost a year ago and is still recovering from all of the trauma the surgery imposed. As I sit here thinking about all of the people I know with cancer, I wonder, why is this happening? Will I be next? I am terrified, but then I remember, I am not alone. Even if something such as this does occur, I have God. In the most difficult times in my life, He carries me and is always next to me. I just have to seek Him with an open and honest heart.

As I sit here and try to make sense of all of this tragedy in people's lives, I realize that is not for me to do. I can ask why, but I am not going to receive an answer. I just need to trust in God, in his plan for us all. Maybe it seems easy for me to say this because I have not been directly affected, but there is a reason that each of these situations is occurring. Tragedy tends to bring God's people closer to Him. While I would never would never wish hardship or tragic experiences on anyone, I do believe they happen for a purpose, the purpose of the greater good, God's greater good.

While I pray for those affected and their loved ones, I also pray for others I do not know. People all over the world as currently dealing with a variety of circumstances, many of them difficult ones. I hope and pray that with each and every difficult situation that you face, you know that God is with you...just seek Him, ask for His comfort. He will provide. He always does. He never fails.

Thank you Lord for giving me comfort during these very uncertain times. I know each difficult circumstance that I experience happens for a reason. Please help me to always find my comfort in Your arms and in Your Word. I pray that all of those currently affected by tragedy will seek You and Your guidance. Thank you for loving us all unconditionally. I praise you Lord. I thank You for all of the blessing You bestowed upon my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.